The story so far...

Why did i do that?

2005-06-13T19:26:27Z

So yeah i deleted all my comments off myspace. Thats cool i guess. I did it cuz someone kept getting mad and insecure about it. So i found myself starting the process of deleting it, beacuse it would make them feel better. But now i looked at that and im like....that was fuckin stupid you idiot. What does that say about me as a person? That ill delete something that i like to make you feel better because you cant get over it? Thats the last time i do that. Cuz i dont know if theyd do that for me. If i got insecure all the time and mad about their myspace i HIGHLY doubt that theyd say "Ill delete it cuz maybe thatll solve some problems." I dont know if theyd put aside their pride.I shouldent have to do this. Im not a shitty person and i really dont deserve to be under constant suspicion.I think that i should let myself have some pride and not bend to youre pressure. Ive been fucked over wayyyy to many times to count and know what i wouldent do that and if you dont believe me im never pulling shit like this again to try and make you feel good cuz my word should be enough for you.

<3Mo

Yeahhhh havent used this thing in a while

2005-05-22T14:44:52Z

Hey guys,

Havent used this thing in a long time but i figured id write some things down in here and stuff. So yeah. Here goes. Well getting in fights with someone you care about is never good. But they happen. And they suck, and people say things theyre thinking without regard for the other person, but it happens. But theres something i cant deal with and i dont want to have to deal with it. Obviously friends have an influence over you and you take what they say into consideration, or downright believe it straight out. Everone does it. Even me, but im one of the people that just considers it, because there is 2 sides to every story. Like example, if a friend tells me that their boyfriends being a jackass cuz they hurt them, ill obviously think that they suck cuz i mean they hurt my best friend, but then i think, well my friend has probably hurt their boyfriend....right? And i hate single minded people that forget about the other person. Theyre so one minded, it doesnt matter the personality of the other person, or what kind of person they are, they suck cuz thats what you were just told. And then you agree with it, you tell your friend, yeah they suck dont deal with them. That creates awkward situations. Cuz i mean look at this. How many of us have looked at a girl and was like, hey how come she only hangs out with her boyfriend alone, maybe because her boyfriends friends now think shes a shitty person cuz of what her boyfriend told them and she feels awkward.

Ok this whole trying to use examples and shit is confusing me. Im just gunna say it. How dare you say that im shitty and i shouldent be trusted. Fuck you. Talk to me first, cuz you dont know the whole fucking story. How about that. And obviously you dont know me, i thought you did, and obviously you didnt. So thank you very fucking much, now im going to be constantly thinking that my boyfriend is reminded that im a shitty person and hes the angel in the relationship. What do you think ive never been hurt through this, what, did that never cross your mind? Well guess what i have been hurt in this relationship. So know what. Obviously i dont know who i can trust. So thank you. You know who you are, for ruining what we were trying to fix.

-Cait

Hi.

2004-12-17T01:01:36Z

Hi Guys.
Yeahhhhhh I fucking hate this. I really hate my life right now. This sucks so bad. All i do is play basketball and do homework. Like seriously i come home, start my HW then go to bball, then come home and do more homework. I cant even handle it. I dont do anything fun, and mostly im not even doing homework, cuz ive finished it, mom makes me do more. Great. I have one day a week, my friday nights.(and my birthday) i have basketball, then i wake up at 8 Saturdays then go to Nashoba, then i come home....shower then possibly go out that night. Sunday the entire day is devoted to homework. The. Entire. Day. Even if my homework takes me like 1-2 hours....it doesnt matter its better to be forced to stay in all day. And thats what i am, and this is making me miserable. I dont go out, i dont see my friends, hell half of them cant even come to my birthday. Whatever its ok. Id rather be happy and get Cs, rather than miserable and get As, but thats not what lifes about right? its what you make yourself in life that really counts right? Blah blah blah. Suck it the fuck up right? Put a little work in and youll be ok. How many of you have a life like this? It doesnt help that all my mom talks about to me is my grades and puts so much god damn pressure on me that its giving me a fucking ulcer. Like my birthdays tomorrow, and all i wanna do is go somewhere....farrrr away. Like Alaska. Ill go chill with the fucking seals. I bet that they dont care what my grades are. This is taking such a toll on me, and i cant even stand it. This is too much responsibility. Like mom the other asked me...."So youve given up all hope of going to a good college." Yes. If going to a good college means this is what im going to have to do. I really dont even think im smart enough to do what i wanna do anymore, and it sucks but whatever. Those dreams were meant for someone else. I refuse to be like this, cuz then im going to be a 30 year old burn out. Im going to forget what it is to go out and have fun if this is what im doing in college. Study. Sleep. Class. Study hall. Study. Sleep. Class....god im going to make myself sick. hahaha. Whatever....this isnt going to change so i should jus get used to this. GAH. someone fucking help me get to Alaska.

-Mo

One last day here. One last day in Paradise.

2004-12-13T02:40:01Z

once upon a year gone by
she saw herself give in
every time she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been
well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds
when covers tucked in tight
funny when the bottom drops
how she forgets to fight...

to fight

and it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise

as darkness quickly steals the light
that shined within her eyes
she slowly swallows all her fear
and soothes her mind with lies
well all she wants and all she needs
are reasons to survive
a day in which the sun will take
her artificial light...

her light

and it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise
it's one more day in paradise
one last chance to feel alright...

once upon a year gone by
she saw herself give in
every time she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been

But theres always someone who has it worse off than you do....

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I'm far
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?

I have no way of saying how i feel right now....so i just use lyrics cuz im a pussy and cant speak for myself.

< 3

hahahahaa

2004-11-26T17:07:24Z

So yeah.....broke out my NFG cd today....man. Brings back sooooo many memories from this summer. I think i had that cd constantly playing everywhere i went.hahaha. It reminded me of that time when a bunch of us climbed the middle school?Hahaha....and Randy and Jer saved Sams life? Hahahaha....reminded me of the day at beach and the Reel Big Fish show that night where we lost Robb and Jer and Anthony. What a good time though. And that time at Sams where we had a barbque and went swimming. Actually of everytime i was over Sams....or over Julies that time where everyone was in the pool? Reminds me of Devons camp this summer and all the fun we had belting out the lyrics to all the songs on this cd in the back of the truck getting ice cream and driving the jet skis and quads and threewheeler and everything. Reminds me of Cape Cod with Court and staying up till like 3 am watching Bug Juice adn Lord of the Rings...hahahahaha. Last but not least.... my favorite memory i think is driving across the desert in Arizona with it blaring in my ears. lol. Dunno made me wikked happy cuz this summer was amazing and i cant wait till the next one and this CD brings back all those memories cuz it was pretty much playing constantly for 3 months hahaha. Man i cant wait for that sunshine to come back and days at the beach and everything. I fucking love that. Hahahaha....wikked random Post....but hey it works.

<3333Mo

Hiiiiii Guysssssss

2004-11-15T01:39:42Z

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Just got home to this frozen winter wonder land. And im sunburned to hell. And Aloe? Oh im sorry....we dont have any. Right so wikked good trip, got there on wed night....went back to the beach took a walk and PASSED OUT. Then next morning arose and went to the pool for the day....what a pretty place. There was a juingle in the hotel. Then we went to Ron Jons....quality store...got a few things....no surf boards...gah. Then went to sleep woke up the next morning and made cinimini rolls then went to MGM. Rode the Tower of Terror with court....the boys pulled out last minute. Theyre not real men. Then we went to Epcot for a few, went on some cool space thing Me and court" Wowwww....howd they do that!?" Wikked dumb we couldent figure out the ride spins. Then We went off to The Magic Kingdom! Went on Buz Lightyear.....good ride/ arcade game thingy....then went on Runaway Railroad...then Haunted Mansion then Space Mountain....good fun.....then back to Epcot and on Test track....amazzzzzing. Then went home....got in around 1130....made a fone call( :-) ) Then went to sleep. Yesterday...woke up and went to the beach. What a gorgeoud beach. Stayed there till lunch came in and hand sandwiches then went back out to the pool. Had a tea part, put on a fashion show...threw court in the pool....got a tan....thats a day well spent. Then we went to dinner and ice cream and came back home to the hotel...chilled outside....made yet another fone call ( :-) ) and fell asleep around 2....woke up at 4....went to the airport....and came home. Funny story....when we were leaving the airport....i deffinatly left my cell phone in the bathroom and the flight attendant went back and got it for me, then today at the airport....wad i do? Left my cell in the bathroom....again....Im a fuckin idiot. Yeah....so then i went around to see Carley and Fitz today and gave them gifts and i was sposed to see a certain someone, but their immune system hasta be a pansy and they hadda get sick and sleep all day. :-) So yeah....its 837 and im wikked tired and living off 2 hours of sleep ill probably edit this entry when i can open both of my eyes. So yeah until then <33333333333

<333Mo

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

-What a good song

Leaving.......again

2004-11-09T23:01:19Z

Hi Folks.....

In reply to all the comments you guys gave to my last post....you guys all made me feel better and i apprecitate it....really. Thanks.:-) So yeah....todays the last day in this cold weather....then to Florida to see visit two of my favorite men....or ones a man....ones an animal.... Buffett....and Mickey. I <3 Mickey. So yeah me and Court are FINALLY getting down there cuz last time damn Hurricane Charley was gay and decided to ruin our trip. But the forcast says 80s and sunny....so im happier than happy....and things latley have been good. Got myself into something new... <3 .....so yeah....hope that works out....but as of now...i want chicken and i want to finish packing....and go out and buy combos....cuz i need a snack for the plane ride tomorrow...so yeah...call me or soemthing cuz i have free roaming or something so it doesnt cost when im in Florida....but you hafta call me....sooo im leaving this all up to you....will i talk to my loved ones in Tewksbury....or be forced to find new friends down there in Cocoa Beach....there ARE alot of surfers.....hmmmm.....surfing.......yayyyyy!

<3333Mo

irish777 @ 2004-10-28T21:43:00

2004-10-29T01:53:12Z

"she may be what you say she is but I can tell you I have way more TRUE FRIENDS than she does."

"she may be what you say she is but looks don't matter"

-Yeah.... just read that and its about me....from an old thing...and think she may be on to something and i cant stand this anymore....im getting EVERYTHING off my fucking chest.....EVERYONE.....STOP FUCKING TAKING ME FOR GRANTED. JUST STOP. I FUCKING HATE IT. I AM NOT FUCKING DISPOSABLE. i will not tolerate this amymore...i just cant......im not like a fuckin swtich that you turn off and on...."i need you, be my friend now" Of course ill be your friend... I ALWAYS AM!!!!! but thats my own fault....i always help people....dosent matter what theyve done to me....ill forgive em in an instant and be there to help them. SO FUCK YOU. Im so done helping all of you....cuz none of you help me....i have a select few friends who help me and thats it. Maybe im just too nice of a fucking person? So yeah....need a ride somewhere....CALL SOMEONE ELSE.....need someone to cry one.....FIND ANOTHER SHOULDER.....CUZ NONE OF YOU WILL DO IT FOR ME.Half of you dont even acknowledge me....cuz you all think....aw its ok....shell still be there for me through anything....i can name sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many people that ive helped....included in all of my plans.....blah blah blah....to make them feel better....and when they do feel better after all my help.....they ditch me. Not a thought in the world to as in to continue to be friends with me....cuz theyre ok now....what the fuck do they need me for....right? Yeah...most of youprobably will read this...say....wow....that sucks....i didnt do that to her....and 99.999999999% chance....Yeah....you fuckin did. Apparently none of you know what friendship means to me....cuz everyone takes me so lightly....and i just want you to fuckin stop. Cuz im sick to death of it.So know what....i hate this more than anything....im so ready to scream and scream and scream....that nothing i do will EVER be good enough for any of you people....ill always be second rate. Dosent matter if im the nicest...funniest most caring person in the world...im only good enough when your in dire need of someone....so know what? Im through.

irish777 @ 2004-10-24T21:07:00

2004-10-25T01:16:44Z

Wow.

Just Wow. Alot of things were just blatantly put into perspective for me...wow. Whatever....i like myself....and im happy being me right now. IF thats not good enough then whatever....sorry im not as good as you. Now im afraid to say stuff to you....cuz i can just see you laughing at it....and that sucks. But whatever....theres people who dont think that of me that me and them are in the same perdidimate....but yeah.....i just feel stupid right now lol.

Hahaha WOW....more cocky than i thought.....whatever though.....i hateeeeee people like that....so dont be like that....its fuckin annoying....and thats one of my pet peeves....im not some small person with no understanding. Trust me.

Theres another world inside of me
That you may never see...

<3Mo

Whatever....FUCK you

2004-10-16T03:27:16Z

Just got home from the dance and it was a wikkkked good time except for a series of unfortunate events. They started with me. I was stupid enough to believe someone when they aid they liked me.....everyone was saying, hes acting weird....i think hes leading you on. Heyyy.....i agree now....and know what.....FUCK you.:-).....ive dealt with SO MUCH bullshit from EVERY....SINGLE....GUY. And the night started off pretty well....then he pulled a usual stunt and didnt talk to me....i wanted to talk but everything i say is either A. Offensive....Or B. Wikked stupid....yeah well at least i fucking talk! Anyhow....im so done with this bullshit...i dont need it...i was having a wikked good time at the dance....and i NEVER EVER WANT TO FUCKING GO BACK to the way i was. You know how....their mood affects mine.....never again....ever. So FUCK you im done with you telling everyone that "you should be the one mad at me." What the fuck? I never did anything until you didnt want to talk to me or started talking to everyone else.....and even then i wasnt mad....but yeah as Shane said..."Leave....just leave." This isnt even that big of a deal at all really...it isnt....im just glad they dont want to talk to me anymore NOW rather than later....when i really started to fall for them....cuz if that happened....thad be HELL. But whatever....im back to me now....no crushes....no guys....cuz they all lie and suck.

<3 Mo

You can’t break away what you cannot change
You can’t break away
You can’t break away what you cannot change
You can’t break away

You keep crying, crying, crying
Till you cannot see at all
You keep crying, crying, crying
Till you cannot breathe at all
What do you do when you’re alone?
What do you do when no one’s home?
What do you do when you’re alone?
Out of control, Now on your own

-REFUSE to let that EVER be me again.

Urgh.

2004-10-12T01:05:39Z

Wikked good weekend though!!! Filled with good times and good people, get my car on the road tomorrow babbbbbbby!!!! Hell Yes. Hey Court....my finger has a big blister on it....cuz i grabbed the piece of hot wood....in the fire....im....an....IDIOT. Right, AP test tomorrow....gotta study....adios amigos.

Everyone wants to be beautiful.
Man...I wish I was beautiful.

<3 Mo

Ahahahaaaa

2004-10-03T22:05:38Z

Good to know.......

<3 Mo

Yeahhh

2004-10-03T14:51:50Z

Hiii there!

Well, thanks for all the comments and letting me know that your there for me....i appreciate it very much. I really do. Thanks guys....yeah, so everythings pretty amazing, last night i went to witches woods.....wikkkkked fun time....hahahaha.....I feel bad for Jeremy...the poor kid had to sit next to me and i think i popped a vein in his arm hahaha.But i still think that Jer was as scared as i was..."I hit the deck....i didnt know what to do!" Although it rained, and we were all soaked...it was still a good time being frightened on the hayride...but it stopped raining and we even got to see the thriller dance...hahaha...."Ok, the conversation ends with you." Poor Dan. I still maintain tha it was outstanding when vampire girl fell in the mud....hahaha.... haha....yeah....so im wayyyy over playing all these games with people, i dont even care anymore. Im not in third grade. So i gave up and it feels good. hahaha...cuz i realized that im better off staying this way anways....i dont need to get back into the world of drama and stuff...so im glad that they chose to fuck with my head hahaha. So i gota go eat breakfast and do TONS of homework...and to you....sorry, but your not worth the effort anymore.:-)

<3Mo

P.S. I love my friends to death.

Hmmmmm

2004-09-30T21:49:52Z

Hiiii!!

Just got back from my game......got homework to do now.....then im probably going to the boys game. This weeks been pretty routine, but fun all the same...even though im still out of soccer. This weekend im going applepicking and to Witches Woods....gunna be so fun. Then i dont know what im up to on sunday probably another good day in store hahaha. I dont really know anymore....but whatever....im not really gunna explain it all in here.... i just wish a friend was really there for me......but i guess its sooooooo true "You want a helping hand?....Take a look at the end of your wrist." But yeah whatever, i deal....theres no one to be like...."Heyyy i have a problem" to....so whatever....its really not a big problem then....But yeah i gotta go eat supper....and then im goin to the guys game in Chelmsford....adios.

P.S. Fuck all of the people who im ALWAYS there for. But unless they need me to be there they dont wanna help me, cuz their to busy dealig with their own shit. Hey its not like i dont have my own shit to deal with, but I put it aside and help YOU sort out your mess....so fuck you for not helping me out.

-Mo

These thingies are funnn

2004-09-29T02:25:05Z

Which Depressed Icon Is You? by drunkaholic
Name
Age
Your Icon

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Your Love Life by lpfloatsmyboat
Name/username/nickname:
favorite color:
best physical quaility:	lips
best personality trait:	people person
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now?	yes!
when will you get married?	December 17, 2017
your kiss is:	fiery
People date you because:	you're funny

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OK!!!!!!!!!!!.....WEIRD.....Im gettingmarried on my Birthday.....whoaaaa.....freaky....P.S.....Romanticist....notice why people date me....personality....or looks....hahaaha

<3Mo

Hmmm

2004-09-21T01:21:51Z

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	hypnotising
Your love is...	one of a kind

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....Hmmmmm.....ya think so?

ha.Ha.HA.

2004-09-05T14:44:34Z

Hahahahahaha.....a cow.....for a background. Good God. My Lj has gone to hell since i now know how to do this...oh man.

Sort me out.

2004-09-05T03:27:00Z

I think ive got such a great handle on everything.....and it comes and goes. Dunno, most of the time i have a handle on everything and im ok with it, but there are these fleeting moments where everything seems to be a huge blur of just everything. Fleeting moments of shit like, whats rong with me and why does that always happen, but i just kinda push it outta my head and then its gone. Dunno why they still enter my mind....oh well... Schools started again....not too bad....hopefully should be a good year. Got soccer right now and stuff....sd;lfksd....icky mood. Havent had one of these in a good month and a half.....but you cant ALWAYS be happy, right? One thing i wont do is become the weak person i was. Im bigger than the shit thats happened. Thats not even whats putting me in a ick mood. I just am. Dunno....just feel alone i guess...whatever right? Everyone feels that way once in a while....Dunno...i just always am the one to make others smile and shit...Dunno just want someone to make me smile...ya know?....im just too busy making everyone else smile for em to notice....not that its a bad thing, i love doing it... ah whatever...im smiling myself when i do it right? Urk. I dislike this mood. I want to chill on my couch with someone and watch a movie. Thats when you want someone....not anyone specific....just someone to be with....but whatever....its not something you need.

-No one knows what its like
To be mistreated,To be defeated
Behind Blue Eyes
And know one knows how to say that their sorry
And dont worry,Im not telling lies
But my dreams....they arent as empty as my conscence seems to be....-

Breathe in right away

Nothin seems to fill this place

I need this every time

So take your lies, get off mycase

Someday i will find a love that flows through me like this

And this will fall away, this will fall away

HELP ME

2004-09-03T17:34:43Z

OK. So....my LJ works in the old format.....but when i switch it to the new format IT DOSENT SHOW UP all my entries are there but they dont show up and i dont know why. Someone.....ANYONE who knows how to fix it....help.....

Thanks.:-)

<3Mo

irish777 @ 2004-09-03T13:22:00

2004-09-03T17:22:04Z

slkfmhsdf

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

2004-08-28T02:24:15Z

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!

Wow....just got home from Britts after work and a doulbe session. Im thinking of amputating my legs just to see if it hurts....i cant feel anything....or move my legs for that matter. Damnit....being a parapeligic sucks. Oh well....ill talk to Christopher Reeves....he'll fix me.:-) Right then....i got back from NH likkeeee almost a week ago....dashing time....really. Rode the Jet-Ski.....rode the quad.....3 wheeler....im workin on the dirtbike...hahaha yeah right. I wreck myself on the other things enough lol....btw dev my hand is still sliced to ribbons....NO GOOD! But....a bunch of people are leaving for college who i will miss! Ive seen everyone all the time over the summer and now they are all leaving....not cool. Ill see a few of them cuz the go to school nearby and ill go visit(If i finally get my car on the road) Actually.....funny story about my car really....1200 to make it in tip top shape....hahahahaha....screw that....i got likeee 3500-4000 saved....and mommas proposing i pay that and she get the rest till i can pay her back(Ha i have 2 jobs:-[) a 1999 Black Convertible Mustang GT, 8 cylinder. 9500. Not too bad used....only got like 35000 miles on it....could be worse.....but anyhow....Like i said....message to the college kids....ILL MISS YOU. Party hard on campus and come back next summer with loads of amazing stories to tell me about your crazy times at school. Well...if you wanna say goodbye and i havent sent you a message online....im me you faggit....i wanna say bye!:-)

<3Mo

P.S. KRISTEN PALMER IS GENIUS. She randomly goes"Hey...isnt Moho a part of the earth?" What? yeah....random...i know....but shes right....the "MOHO" is a part of the earths crust...i believe it is the part we are walking on. Yeah....we're all walking on Moho.

Betcha didnt know that.

Annnnd im BACK!!!!

2004-08-14T04:43:24Z

Oh. My. God. That was the coolest experience of my life. Like Hawaii when i was 11 was the best vacation untill now. But the Wext Coast gave the islands a good run for their money. Golly....where to begin....Sam and Paula picked us up from the airport....which it was like 107 degees outside that day, and we went on our way to Arizona, on the way we stopped at the Hoover Dam....wikked cool place. Then we ended up staying at a little hotel out in some part of the desert in Arizona. Then the next morning, i went to the Grand Canyon...good gracious. Theres something about it that just puts you in shock. Its the most beautiful thing i can think of. Ok, think of all the fake backgrounds for pictures and things, yeah, thats it. It dosent even look real because its so gorgeous. So i stayed on the canyon for a day in a shack 15 feet from the edge. Yeah, btw....no railings...nada. Your dumb like me and your balance isnt so hott? Yeah....youre screwed. We took a trail of all the points along the rim of the canyon and stopped and watched the sunset at one point. Well Lord Be, There is no other place id ever describe as amazing to watch the sn go down.(You can see the pics of all this when i get my picture trail up and running.)Then went to a REAL Tex-Mex restaraunt for dinner and went to sleep.(P.S. they have killer squirrels over there. They crawl on your feet when your not looking. Trust me, i booted one off my ankle.) Next morning, I hiked down the canyon with Paula and Sam...whom i miss very much while she is now in Cali....but hopefully ill see her again soon, you know....before she looses her Boston accent. While hiking down the canyon....we came across a gorgeous ranger who began to talk to us.Then we left him saving some person after taking his picture and continued down the trail. I think we were the most cheerful people on that trail that morning. Youd notice this because we were belting out Kenny Chesney, Toby, Tim, Garth, Big and Rich....hahaha....it was a fun thing to do. It entertained people i think. Then on the way back up...we stopped for lunch...and who stops right behind us and sits with us other than Mr. Gorgeous Ranger himself. And so we sit and talk to him for a good 45 minutes. Then he hiked back up with us. Now....imagine how beautiful i said the canyon was and how i loved it. Well i was completley disracted from the view by Ben. hahaha...its a miracle i didnt trip and fall over....which wouldnt have been so bad, since his occupation states hed hafta save me. Then later that day we went back to Vegas. where we chilled for a night and such...it was a good time. The next day though, i am sad to say, Sam and myself parted after 4 days of adventure. But not before we hit up Aladdin and went shopping.:-) I then stayed by the pool for the rest of the day, then went to the Rio hotel for dinner and picked my dad up from the airport, who until then had been in Nova Scotia. Then the next morning, i awoke, got my biscuts and gravy and left for Utah. Yayyyyy. We got to Zion national park that day, another beautiful canyon. We took the tour of the canyon and then took a hike on a trail. My dad and i went up the river in the canyon in our shoes and such, where i met cowboys. Yes. Cowboys. You know, its amazing the people you meet out there, so many different kinds, hicks(met a few of those),cowboys(those too), city kids(yup)and LOTS of out of country folk(amny of whcih barley speak english....how the hell they get around these parks is beyond me.) AAAAAAnnnyyyhow.....then we went back and stayed in the lodge at the foot of the canyon. Now, imagine a really nice house and 20 feet from it is a canyon wall.and it goes up for like a thousand feet.then you turn around and, oh look! Its the same on the other side. it was so cool. Had dinner inyet another Tex-Mex place and then went to go watch Ranger Kristy talk about animals. Then went back to the lodge to turn in for the night. i stayed out on the balcony for like a good 45 minutes, just staring at the sky. At first i was a little scared, i looked up and there was this huge black mass covering part of the sky and panicked and thought the sky was falling, but then realized it was the canyon wall. Yeah. Im dumb. There are so many stars out there it is impossible to even comprehend. It looks like the sky has a permenant glow, but then you realize its tiny dim stars you wouldent otherwise see if you wernt out there in the middle of the desert. Then the next morning we took off for Bryce canyon. On the way we stopped at some little shop run boy some more cowboys out in the middle of the desert...but there were indians there too. Whats this? Cowboys and Indians getting along!? Then we got to Bryce and stayed there for a few hours...did all the hiking trails(yeah my legs are rock solid now.)Bryce was a wikked different kinda canyon, it had all these cool things like mounds of dirt comming out of the ground, only rock, and they were all carved and stuff, i cant really explain....youll hafta check my pictures.lol. Then we headed back to Vegas, where i stayed ever since. We stayed at the Flamingo and such for the remainder of the trip. We hit up the Belagio, Paris, Aladdin,and my very favorite place in Vegas....The Venitian. It was sooooo amazing. We took a Gondola ride and the driver sang to us and everything. It was justr like being in Venice, but clear blue water instead. That night i went back to the Flamingo with my parents aroune 11. I wanted to go to the room and order room service and watch TV....cuz my parents were gunna gamble and i figured...hell....what am i gunna do, sit in the lobby? Well i went with my dad right over to a roulette table and he sat down and began polaying. I sat with him and told him where to bet and such. Yea. I sat there for a good 2 and a half hours and no one said anything. No one even asked me how old i was, they did ask me however what i would like for a cocktail. Right....cuz i look 21? HA! but it was a good night, padre won a buncha money and i got to watch roulette, my favorite game:-) Then i went out on lake mead with Michelle and Brian and Chris and Jack. It was a good time, wikked pretty blue lake, and i got to see the Hoover Dam from the other side. Then i went home. Booooo. Damn Hurricane Charley. Delayed us on the runway for a good hour and a half. I played music trivia against the other ppl on the plain. I sucked. But the woman next to me was in first place, so naturally...i copied whatever she put down. Then i watched shrek @ and played cards. Then when the movie was over...i turn on cartoon network and see none other than CAPTAIN PLANET!!!!! Cmon now, what person can sleep when captain planet is on. So i slept none, then got to boston around 730, and to my house around 9,and P A S S E D O U T. Slept till like 445 today and went out with Sam and Alan And Crank. All in all.....one of the most incredible experiences ive ever had.

-Mo

P.S. SAM!!!!!!! i found out on a plain in Utah a herd of buffalo....then all looked pretty happy, but then i looked at the House that had enclosed the ranch....and there was a sign on top of it saying"Buffalo Grill"! AHHHH! Poor Buffalo.:-(

irish777 @ 2004-07-31T16:28:00

2004-07-31T20:34:41Z

stole from carley....which was stolen from shelby
*Age of first kiss: 14
*Number of people you've kissed: a hefty amount.
*French kissing is: funnnn
*The worst kind of kiss is: chicken lips or lizzard tounge
*The best kisser you know: urgh...'him'.
*The worst kisser you know: now thats not nice!
*The celebrity you'd like to kiss: jesus...whats his name...Van wilder....
*Friend you would like to kiss:hahahahaha :-X
*Favorite movie kiss: Ariel and Prince Eric
*Do you kiss on the first date? i guesso if i like em
*Eyes open or closed?close eyes open kinda freaks me out...really bad actually....so i keep my eyes closed so i dunno if theyre lookin at me.
*Average number of kisses you get a day: hahaha i dont know.
*Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? NO!
*The last person you kissed: Randy i guess?....But Shell walked in and screamed.hahahahaha
*Best place to be kissed: N E C K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Best Place: Rainstorm on the beach.
*Have you kissed someone of the same sex? on the forhead or cheek
*Do you consider kissing cheating? Yeah, it usually leads to other things.
*The longest you've gone without a kiss: good golly....like 6 months.
*The kiss you regret most is: Oh boy. I got sooo much shit for Mike F.
*Kissing in public is:go for it but if iot gets outta hand....take it somewhere appropriate
*Tongue rings are: SEXY
*Two girls kissing is:watever floats ur boat
*Two guys kissing is: ^^^
*What fictional character do you most want to kiss? Harry Potter.
*Soft lips or firm lips? soft lips....definatley soft

irish777 @ 2004-07-31T13:36:00

2004-07-31T20:11:52Z

ABOUT YOU
Your full name:: Caitlin Elizabeth Loncrini Mahoney
Age:: 16
Height:: 5'9"
Natural hair color:: Blondeee
Eye colour:: they change alot....wait....who spells color like that?
Number of siblings:: ZERO
Glasses/contacts?:: 20/20 vision baby

DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: piano and attepmting guitar
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: hahaha nope
Like to sing?:: hell yes
Have a job?:: i get paid to tan....aka lifeguard.
Have a cell phone?:: when it wants to be.Otherwise its a neuscense
Like to play sports?:: obsessed.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: HA no
Have a crush on someone?:: HAHA no
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: no.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: yes
Have any special talents/skills?:: I can put my whole fist in my mouth.:-)
Excercise daily?:: eh....msot days
Like school?:: Ewwwwwwww
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: if i think about it....reaaalll hard.
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: HAHAHAHA no
Speak any other languages?:: fiesta en mis pantalones.
Go a day without food?:: HAHAHAHA....FOODS MY LIFE.
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: hell yes.
Read music, not just tabs?:: nope...i suck:-D
Roll your tongue?:: lemme try....yup
Eat a whole pizza?::YUMMMMMYYYY

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Yes....once...but i got caught. Im dumb
Cried to get out of trouble?:: hahahaha yep.
Gotten lost in your city?:: Tewksbury? haha...get lost where? its one big farm
Seen a shooting star?::multiple stars
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: Canada
Had a serious surgery?:: multiple injuries
Stolen something important to someone else?:: someones heart....hahahaah
Solved a rubiks cube?:: well...i had a cheap one and took all the stickers off and put them back so they looked likt it
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: you betcha
Cried over a girl?:: i dont think so.
Cried over a boy?:: unfortunatley.
Kissed a random stranger?::hahahah yes.
Hugged a random stranger?:: all the time.
Been in a fist fight?:: I kicked her ass.
Been arrested?:: NO
Done drugs?:: no
Had alcohol?:: The irish in me is there for a reason
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: orange soda...Yeah....thanks for burning my nostrils with the carbon shit court.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA 37 stories....and i was on floor 5 and the person in the elevator had floor 31...im horrible:-)
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: hahaha MO has!-That would be courtneys response. and sadly....shes correct.
Swore at your parents?:: i got the belt.
Been to warped tour?:: HELL FUCKING YES!
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: ohhh yes.
Been in love?:: no
Been close to love?:: eh...dont think so
Been to a ...casino?:: yeppp.
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: i hit a bunny once...i cried the rest of the way into boston.
Broken a bone?:: HAHAHAHA which bone HAVENT i broken
Gotten stitches?:: yeaaa
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: HAHAH YES!
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: drank 2 gallons in a half hour....wow...im disgusting.
Made homemade muffins?:: corn muffins bitch.
Bitten someone?:: hahaha yes.
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: yuh huh...i love Mickey.
More than 5 times?:: yes i have...just cant get enough mouse.
Been to niagra falls?:: Yep
Burped in someones face?:: TALFORD!!!!
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Yup

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: about 20 minutes ago
Went to the bathroom:: about 20 minutes ago
Saw a movie in theaters:: Catwoman, like tuesday.
Read a book:: Re-read Harry Potter
Had a snow day:: No idea.
Had a party:: Last night
Had a slumber party:: likkkkeeee may?
Made fun of someone:: right as we speak
Tripped in front of someone:: 5 minutes ago...i fell up the stairs into my house trying not to fall over the dog.
Went to the grocery store:: yesterday
Got sick:: ummmmm a lonnnng time ago
Cursed:: when i fell up the stairs into my house trying not to fall over the dog.
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: fruit
Black/white:: black
Lights on/lights off:: off
TV/movie:: movie
Car/truck:: car
Body spray/lotion:: lotion
Cash/check:: cash
Pillows/blankets:: pillow
Headache/stomach ache:: headache....just cuz ive never had one
Paint/charcoal:: paint
Chinese food/mexican food:: Chinese
Summer/winter:: Summer girlllll
Snow/rain:: snow
Fog/misty:: misty
Rock/rap:: rock
Meat/vegetarian:: MEAT!!!!!
Boy/girl:: Aliens...girls are silly and boys are void of hearts.
Chocolate/vanilla:: Vanilla
Sprinkles/icing:: icingggggg
Cake/pie:: cake
French toast/french fries:: French fries
Strawberries/blueberries:: Strawberries....cuz i cant have them....damn allewrgies
Ocean/swimming pool:: The ocean makes me happy
Hugs/kisses:: I love both.
Cookies/muffins:: cookies
p33n/bewbz:: VOIIIIIIIIDDDDDDDDDDD
Wallet/pocket:: pocket
Window/door:: window
Emo/goth:: emo
Pink/purple:: pink
Cat/dog:: DOGGGG....BLITZENNNNNNNNNNNNN
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: short
Pants/shorts:: shorts....i happen to like my legs.
Winter break/spring break:: spring break
Spring/autumn:: Both are amazinggg
Clouds/clear sky:: clear sky
Moon/mars:: moon

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: nahhhhh
If you have, with who?:: Snickers....why wait?
Are you single?:: Yuh huh:-)
Are you in a relationship?:: ok, either ask are you single, or are you in a realtonship...both being asked is pointless.
If so, for how long?:: IM NOT IN A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP...STOP PRYING!!!!
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: i believe there is 2 people for everyone, one person that your meant to be with, but cant, and one one your meant to be with, and are
What is your idea of the best date?:: Beach
What was your first kiss like?:: fun?
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: i dont know...sometime before high school
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: i dont believe in love really...hard to explain.
Whats the best experience you've ever had with the opposite sex?:: hahahaha...thats for me to keep quiet.
Have you ever been dumped?:: yep.
Have you ever dumped someone?:: hahaha....yep.

I....
am:: silly
want:: to be happy forever.
need:: chocolate
crave:: beachhhh and water and surffff
love:: smiling
hate:: crying
did:: go mountain biking
feel:: independent and happy
miss:: the beach, havent been there in like a week
am annoyed by:: dumb decisions
would rather:: tie my wrists together, rather than my ankles.
am tired of:: rain. WHERES THE GOOD WEATHER!?!??!
will always:: pull through.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: sometimes
pretty?:: eh....i dont know....not really
sarcastic?:: highly
lazy?:: hahaha...very
hyper?:: yeah...ADD
friendly?:: extremely
evil?:: nahhh
smart?:: Ummm....yeah i guess
strong?:: physically yes. Emotionally....most of the time.
talented?:: i dont know....i guesso
dorky?:: WIKKED

FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: Against to a point. For some, life REALLY IS just too hard.
love:: indifferent
drunk drivers:: against...took someone dear to me.
airplanes:: WAYYY FOR!
war:: for....but for a relevant cause
canada:: BLAME CANADA...but im for em.
united states:: FOR
rock music:: for
gay marriage:: for
school:: eh you need it someday....for it
surveys:: for
parents:: for....sometimes
cars:: fouuuuuuuurrrrrrrrr
killing:: against. Beating? Now thats another story.
britney spears:: what?....indifferent
coffee:: F-O-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pants:: who needs em?

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: 18th birthday baby:-)
Play strip poker?:: already have....but im as good at poker as Lindsay Lohan(Sorry court) in the parent trap.
Run away?:: if my destination was somewhere good.
Curse at a teacher?:: Hahahaha....Doolan hates my cursing.
Not take a shower for a week?:: A week? Thats pushing ita little bit...
Ask someone out?:: Old fashioned....i wait for the man to be a man and wear the pants....unless hes a real pansy...ill strap on some suspenders.
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: no, im cool with myself....
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: Italy or Ireland
Go scuba diving?:: SOOO fun
Write a book?:: Yupp
Become a rockstar?:: Id love to.:-)
Have casual sex?:: Sure thing....if casual means he dresses up.

LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: Fructis
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: Umm yesterday i guess?
What kind of computer do you have?:: HP pavilion
What grade are you in?:: 11th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: No, snow caps are clearly the correct choice, they cause discomfort when they hit the person...unlike light airy popcorn...and if that dosent piss them off enough, they melt on them!
Or just make out?:: I can multi-task.... altough my aim might be a little off if im kissing someone....
How many posters do you have in your room?:: likeee 4?
How many cds do you have?:: over 100:-[

Wowwww....that took soooo long....

Yeah.

2004-07-19T04:25:53Z

I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away

I'm going nowhere on and on and
I'm getting nowhere on and on and on
Take me away
I'm going nowhere on and off and off and on
and off and on

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away

Take me away
Take me away
Break me away
Take me away

But dont trouble yourself. No one needs to take me away. Ill do it myself.